I find myself in an odd state.

This morning I woke up at 3am to work at 4am. I might also add that only a short time ago I was going to bed at  3am – my body is going through early morning shock, though frankly, 3am shouldn’t be called morning at all. What’s wrong with this picture?

Life is full of trade offs. By going to work early I get home in the morning with the whole day ahead of me, but of course going to bed at a decent enough time to get some sleep is proving difficult. This is not a job I can see myself doing for a very long time, though I really hate to give up the hefty Gap Inc. discount (50% off at Banana Republic? Swoon).

But honestly, from where I sit right now, summer is looking a little dismal – no trips planned, work 3 or 4 days a week. And while I live in the beautiful country, I haven’t been able to really enjoy it, due to the my friend, the allergies. I want to travel, to go away to someplace where there are no allergies, or at least get a health plan that covers Allegra, which has never gone generic, and insists on being over-priced.

I think I need cheering up.

 

I’m in summer limbo.

I don’t have to start work until next week, and yet I can’t really go outside and do summery things, due to the pollen circulating through the air. And who shall I blame for this? Well, I could blame the SSU student health plan, which has terrible prescription coverage. Or I could blame Allegra for never going generic and trying to rip people off at the pharmacy. Or I could blame Claritin for not being ineffectual in general. Jury’s still out.

vsh0483l

Therefore, there are a few options left for me to do today;

1. Shopping – generally this is a good distraction for me, but since I have bills looming over my head and spent mucho dinero on fruit at Costco yesterday (and I did not buy a hot dog, congratulate me!) I really shouldn’t. Though I do want to buy another copy of The Deathly Hallows since I lent it to my mom months ago and she let it get exposed to some sort of dampness.

2. Library – hmm, I do need books, having just finished Helen of Troy, which I do highly recommend. However, there is the small matter of owing fees to the local library, of how much I do not know, therefore going to the library could cost me more than shopping. Potentially.

3. The gym – sigh.

4. The couch – my present location, watching What Not to Wear, wondering why my life is dull, yet relishing in the dullness. Another sigh.

5. Make low-calorie carrot cake – very temping, and tasty option. Curious? Here’s the recipe. Yet I have no ingredients to make them, therefore a trip to the store would be needed, and there’s that money thing again. Dang. Plus I’m not sure if running the oven on a hot day in a house with no air conditioning is a smart thing…

6. Swimming – ok, not really an option, but I wish.

Ok, so for the next half hour or so, I think I’ll be doing #4, and then showering.

You are so jealous of my life right now. Admit it.

tbrn119l

 

 

Officially done with school for the summer. Officially.

Now what to dooo…

Oh, I know, nothing!!

– Ok, maybe not nothing, but it’s free nothing. Except that I finally managed to find a summer job, which is no small feat in Sonoma county right now, and have about a week before I have to start working. But not major working, I hope. Shall report more back later. But all papers have been turned in, and now I’m just waiting for my grades.

DSCN4497

On a bright note, not that grades aren’t bright, I took my new kayak out on spring lake today for the first time! Though it was windy and allergies were abundant, it was frankly awesome. And not tippy. (If you listened to my mom you’d think it was a deadly weapon or something, which is….not right).

And now I’m a bit pink and my arms ache like……I’ve been kayaking all day.  🙂DSCN4509 On an unrelated note, watching the Kardashians try to camp makes me feel better about myself, as camper…and a person. Silliness.

Oh blog, I have long neglected thy pages!

Do you ever have those moments when you really feel like writing, but there is so much going on in your life, and your head, that you can’t seem to even start? Thus is my life.thesis

But, thus will not be my life in a week or so, when I am done with my first year of grad school, and can retire to a summer of brainless loafing. Bear in mind, however, that my definition of ‘brainless’ involves reading and doing prep work for my thesis next year.

Add in the fact that my little, serene house is soon to be invaded by the men in my life, and will be rather crowded for the summer, at least. But, while my dad is up here taking up MY space, I may just have to flee south to his empty Irvine apt, to sit on the nice warm beach for awhile. We’ll see.

But good news! Picture me on Monday, quite exhausted from having writer’s block (or writer’s laziness, who am I kidding) till about 1am when I proceeded to write my recent article report for class, and stayed up till 4am doing so. (Why oh why do I get a second wind at about 12:45am? It freaks with my sleep schedule.)  Sitting on my bed, dripping coffee into my veins, and checking my email to find that SSU had finally made a decision about the teachers for next year. And I am happy to report that next Fall I will be joining the ranks of the ever-exhausted and underpaid grad student  who teach freshman comp, otherwise known as English 99!

Get me with my very own little group of resistant students and (shared) office hours. Am I excited? Does a bear…oh you know the rest.

Perhaps the best thing about this news is that I’m going to get the chance to see what I want to do with my life, to see if teaching is really going to be my future. Hopefully I will not be discovering this during the 8am class – I will be flitting between grogginess and caffeine highs, not so good.  Recently all my efforts to find a summer job have come to no success, and I was beginning to think that I was un-hirable. The crazy thing is that I could always find a simple job before, so maybe the economy is really that bad, or maybe the job market is being flooded. OR maybe no one wants to hire grad students? I rationalize that they just don’t want to be around someone smarter than them all the time (let me cling to my last shred…). But, thank God, apparently I’m not like the employee plague –someone wants me!

And really, I need the summer to decompress, because right now, my brain is being squeezed through the academic equivalent of a sieve.  So what’s left to do…finish my article on the history of medieval writing instruction (20 pages), write my last paper for the publishing and  politics class (6 pages), and write my paper for the English garden class (a very painful 15-20 pages). If in two weeks my next post is incoherent and full of stupid grammar mistakes, take pity on me. I gave at the grad school office.

But oh, the weather is calling me outside. The rain and fog has finally gone away, and the sun is predicting at 73 degree day. Now why do I have to go to class in a room with no windows? 

proc